REFLECTING! (when life throws you a curve ball)

When life throws you a curve ball, it’s in the accepting of all that is where there are glimpses of peace.

As I woke today to a new day, the city was covered in a blanket of fog. Quite fitting as I have been in what feels like a fog for several days now, unable to get up but able to appreciate the experience.

Over the last few days my body went through extreme sweats, aches, shivers and pain beyond what I’ve ever known.

In this time I was able to reflect about a friend we lost recently to cancer and it got me thinking, sensing and seeing things with a deeper awareness of compassion.

I saw them in pain but I could never of known their pain.

I can see how brave they were and as I write this my eyes well up with tears. If we could have taken away your pain, if we could have truly understood your pain, we knew how hard and courageous you fought to stay but we could never truly feel your pain.

We can not understand someone else’s pain when they loose a loved one or anything really. We all deal with pain in our own way and every experience is different, we may know our own pain but never another’s.

What I also got to experience laying on my back for days was, a sense of total acceptance of what was here, above and beyond. It was nice in those pain free moments but what to do when they weren’t there, not to compare them but to embrace them, love them and know it would all pass, it seemed so surreal. In the absolute, no need to do anything, no need to worry, there was this okayness with just what was.

When life throws you a curve ball, it’s in the accepting of all that is where there are glimpses of peace.

Marilyn